Monday, 25 February 2013

Is my heart open or closed?



Today's reading is set at the well in Samaria, when Jesus asks a Samarian woman for a drink of water.  (John 4:5-15)

I used the Gospel Contemplation form of prayer, where after reading the passage a couple of times, I close my eyes and immerse myself in the scene.

I became the Samarian woman.  It was scorching hot out, full sun, midday.  As I approached the well and saw a strange man there, I became uneasy and wary.  I noticed that no one else was around, and I wasn't sure if I was safe.

Then the man spoke to me.  I dared not look at him.  He asked me for a drink of water.  I was shocked!  Was this a trick?  What was his motive?  Surely this man did not need my help, I thought.  Why is he speaking to me anyways?  His kind don't speak to my kind; it's just unheard of.

But then I noticed that I didn't sense any danger.  I didn't feel threatened, and there were no bad vibes on my radar.  I considered his request.  I trusted my instincts and let down my guard.  I looked at the man before me.

He looked like a kind man, and he looked very thirsty.  I filled up my bucket and gave it to him to drink.



Summary:

At first I was shaken up by the situation because of what I perceived to be happening, based on my biases and assumptions.  My heart was closed and judgmental.  I was full of doubt and skepticism.

When I looked through the lens of my heart, I saw a humble, gentle man who was truly thirsty and in need of my help.  I had a bucket, and he did not.  I had access to something that he needed, and there was more than enough for us to share.  When I opened my heart, I felt compassion, kinship, and a call to service.  I helped my brother because I wanted to, and because I could.

Sunday, 24 February 2013

Plug Into God


I am part of an ecumenical Week of Guided Prayer, based on the Ignatian prayer tradition.

I was given a poem to read based on scripture, and then reflected on whatever stood out from the poem.  I then sat quietly with the phrase that popped out.  This form of prayer is called Lecto Divina.

"... I have even maintained your freedom to go astray...."

When meditating on this phrase, I started to think about how I get to choose when to be conscious or unconscious of God's presence in my life.

I imagined that I had a socket on the top of my head, and that whenever I wanted to, I could reach out and grab hold of God's electrical power cord, and plug it into my socket.  I could be instantly connected to God in my real life, in the messy and choatic life I live, just by willing it to be so.

When I was Plugged Into God, I heard Him tell me,

"You Are Mine.  I Love You."

That comforted me a lot, and filled me up with warmth and love.  I felt tears of joy well up in my eyes.  I sat and basked in God's love for a few more moments, and then thanked God for this beautiful experience.